It never occurred to me how in five days time, it'd be your birthday. You'd probably be celebrating with your friends from college, where you'll be surprised by them and then have a lovely dinner with plenty of fun. And you'd probably meet your boyfriend who'd sneak into your house and surprise you with his own idea of a birthday, where you'd fall asleep in his arms gazing up at the night sky. And I'll be happy for you and have a lonely drink by the porch and gaze up at the stars.